Overcoming the Myth of Not Enough

I am sure you have often come up against the erroneous phenomena of “ Not enough”. Not enough money, not enough happiness, not enough possessions, not enough energy or the biggest lie of all “ I am not enough”. “I don’t do enough, I don’t have it in me, I haven’t the talent or the skill:” and on they go the “ not enough” lies. Following these myths we tell ourselves the statement, “ I can’t “, and so we suffer with learned helplessness too.

This belief system has its origins in our childhood usually at around nine years old and we realise that we are still learning and begin comparing ourselves with others and find ourselves wanting. We are well and truly trained in self judgement by this time as we have had excellent coaches pointing out our inadequacies at home our parents and at school our teachers. In recent times another issue has occurred in our developing feelings of not being good enough and that is the trend toward over praise. This occurs when everything you do is “awesome”, “ fantastic”, or “ Oh you are so clever”. The children know the patronising lie of this and the momentary lift, if there is one, is quickly counteracted by their ego saying this is not true.

Some children compensate by pretending they can do everything while feeling inadequate underneath. Others feel inadequate and begin to hide. We grow up and become over inflated, narcissistic and projective and deflective at one end of the continuum, or deflated, unworthy, in hiding, confluent and retroflective at the other end. Which ever side of centre, of the continuum, you find yourself the source reason is the same, “ I am not enough”.

Our commercialised world perpetuates this myth in order to have us buy more things, spend more money on improving the way we look, speak, and profits from both our innate need to belong, to have status and to self medicate our deep feelings of not enough and unworthiness.

On Mondays I do intensive tai chi training with my master Eddie. Currently he is focusing on subtle energy or chi flow in my body. My main issue is I try too hard. I try to push the river and this has the effect of building boulders in the river of me and slowing me down. I feel like such a slow learner in tai chi. I have been doing it for 30 years!

Whatever the “it ” is at the time! Making “it “happen is ” Not My Job” being a clear channel for the energy flow is. Isn’t it a paradox that working harder and harder, pushing myself more and more has the effect of blocking the flow. This feeling of “not enough” can have us falling into the try harder, do more, trap.

Eddie explained to me the chi at its manifesting source is compacted right down into a minuscule ball. Smaller than a pinhead. He said it was like when the egg and a sperm (yin and yang) come together as a human 1 celled embryo. All the energy for the entire human life , from conception to death, is held in that one cell. This is the natural process. Before the Big Bang all the energy of the entire universe was held in a minute ball smaller than a pin head. The force of this energy when released is mighty. The release happens because it must.

In tai chi this release of energy is called fajing. In Chen style it is released and a mighty cracking sound is heard. In Yang style it is released in a whisper and is just as powerful. In a diamond, a very compacted energy form, it is released as a white, bright , shining light.

The idea of “not enough “ is ridiculously erroneous in a universe born of a ball smaller than a pinhead. When you look at this with trust in the centre of your heart mind you can to begin to overcome this belief of not enough and become the clearest channel you can be.

In my six month “Heart Inn Me” programme we will explore together the “ not enough “, myth beliefs, not by doing regressive therapy on our childhood problems and clawing our way through over the broken glass of our suffering. This doesn’t work. I know I tried for many years to overcome in this way. I then moved into Transpersonal and Transformative approaches and this worked much better but there was still something missing.

Now I help you to develop Heart Mind and Brain Coherence where all of this angst and suffering melts away, often without you even realising it, as you become more aligned with your true authentic being and Soul Self. You will transform and experience your transpersonal mind too. This six month programme is personalised especially for you as we commit to work and explore together one on one.

Go to the Heart Mind Programme and Store. Open the programme by clicking on the picture for a more detailed look at what my programme offers you. I am looking forward with excitement, and an open heart, to meeting and working with you.

From my heart inn me to your heart in you,

Jan.

Broken Heart Syndrome

We hear about it all the time in songs and poems;  a heart that is broken:  My Achy Breaky Heart, Heart Break Hotel, Only Love Can Break a Heart,.  What if it was true?  That grief really can break your actual heart?

There is a condition called Broken Heart Syndrome which mimics a heart attack.  It is a condition brought on by sudden extreme stress, as in the experience of losing a loved one.  There is a temporary disruption of your heart’s normal pumping function in one area of the heart, the lower left ventricle.  The broken hearted person experiences sudden chest pain and  shortness of breath.

The test results are the same as for a regular heart attack but there are no blocked arteries.  This is the heart’s reaction to a sudden surge of stress hormones and is called takosubo cardiomyopathy or stress cardiomyopathy.

Fortunately most people have a quick recovery from this physical heart break.  However recovery from stress, grief and the collapse of the usual life of a heart broken person can take much longer and have a devastating effect on the immune system, ability to sleep and function in the world.  The emotional devastation can last a lifetime in vulnerable people with a history of depression, suicidal ideation, P.T.S.D. and anxiety disorders.

” You can die of a broken heart-its a scientific fact-and my heart has been breaking since that very first day we met.  I can feel it now, aching deep behind my rib cage, the way it does every time we are together, beating a desperate rhythm : love me, love me, love me.”  Abby McDonald, Getting over Garret Delaney.

Most of us will experience a deep grief, and loss in our lifetime.  Imagine how it must be for those of us living in war zones, in areas of famine and natural disasters.

Individually we can recover much more quickly than is commonly believed.  It does not take years and a fortune in therapy dragging yourself through the angst of your past.  It is a suffering that cannot be suppressed without having serious consequences in your every day life.  So being enabled to take yourself out of suffering is vital to live fully, happily and following your dreams instead of living in a nightmare.

Heart break can be instantly transformed by entering the heart mind and coming into coherence with your brain. You will feel immediate relief from suffering.  So much so that it will feel as if a miracle has occurred.  You will most likely fall quickly out of your heart mind and back into the old habits of the ego.  It is like anything we master it takes practice and guidance. This is what my six month, individualised, programme brings to you.  It is a safe journey into your heart mind so that by the end of six months you will be walking the path into you heart,  being creative from  your authentic soul self , within three breaths.

My ultimate goal is to create a tribe that lives primarily from the  heart mind in coherence and as a group we can create a field of energy that will add to the healing energy of the World Coherence movement which is occurring right now.

Surrender.

 

Surrender up,

Your heavy heart.

Let loose on mellow winds,

Russetted memories in pale gold,

Dust from sweet unction days.

(C) 2018 Gogyoshi by Jan Illingsworth.

May we all be free from suffering.  May we all be at peace.

In my six month “Heart Inn Me” programme we will explore together how to sit in your heart mind and to listen to stillness.  We can then share any blocks you may come across and then the positive outcomes of this practice in your life.

 I will help you to develop Heart Mind and Brain Coherence where all of the chaos of the external world, our obsessing monkey mind, angst and suffering melts away. This can happen, often without you even realising it, as you become more aligned with your true authentic being and Soul Self. You will transform and experience your transpersonal mind too. This six month programme is personalised especially for you as we commit to work and explore together one on one.

Go to the Heart Mind Programme and Store. Open the programme by clicking on the picture for a more detailed look at what my programme offers you. I am looking forward with excitement, and an open heart, to meeting and working with you.

 

From my heart inn me to your heart in you.

Jan

The Broken Heart.

The Beginning:

There are turning point moments in our lives that happen so powerfully and unexpectantly. Moments that heal us so rapidly and significantly you have to say a miracle happened.

I sat outside in my beautiful garden one early Autumn evening and wondered if I would ever feel truly happy again. I was silent and still.  I breathed slowly and just surrendered my broken heart up to a higher plane. I was done with trying.

It had been raining earlier and little droplets of water sparkled on the green grass. I noticed them. Nothing else in awareness but the silver sparkles of water on the green lawn. The sun was low in the sky and the light rays made the droplets sparkle even more. For no reason that I was aware of I bent my head down and turned it at the same time. To my amazement all the little drops of water turned electric blue. That crystal clear blue I only ever saw in a rainbow or a the lights on my bedroom wall from the prism I had hung in my window. I moved my head up and down and the droplets of water changed with my movements through the rainbow spectrum. Red, orange, yellow , green, blue, purple and indigo.

I was transported to another dimension in that moment and I began to smile and then to laugh at how funny I must look leaning with my head held on its side rising up and down. Then I cried with relief and placed my hand on my heart. My gratitude filled the universe of me and I knew the dark night of my soul was over.

It was in this dark night, that had lasted eight years, my journey into the heart mind began. This was before there were websites and before we knew that a broken heart is a true thing and not just a metaphor for deep sadness.

Twenty one years ago my partner left me. I loved him deeply and we were very happy in our life together or so I thought. He left me for a younger woman after about a six month affair and I was devastated. Three days later my favourite cousin who was close to me was killed in a car accident. Everything seemed to collapse around me, my work in private practice, my finances, my trust in my spiritual beliefs, my trust in myself, and my health. I entered a deep reactive depression and a dark night of the soul which lasted eight years. I was still thinking, deep down, in a child like way that is called superstitious magic ; that if I was good, good things would happen to me and if I was bad, bad things would happen to me. What had I done to deserve this pain?

I knew two things. Firstly I accepted I had a broken heart coupled with attachment issues that I need to sort out and secondly I knew I had the grit and sufficient belief in myself to come through this and find a new dream.

During this time I worked hard to overcome. I had my shamanic drum and every night after I lit the fire I would quietly drum and chant. It was soothing and I imagined my guides, or someone, some beings were listening. I thought also there was a reason for this calamity and so I was conscientious about staying as self aware as I could. I had practiced Vipassana meditation for thirty five years and I continued to practice even though it was difficult to find the eye of the storm.

Some people were well meaning in their attempts to help me, some were just down right cruel. My sons stepped up to the mark and even though I objected they insisted they would help me. “ I am supposed to look after you, not the other way around,” I said. They told me sons all over the world supported their mothers, that they were men now not boys and I’d better just swallow my pride, so I did.

At night before I slept I made up chanting tunes to some Celtic verses I found in a book a friend had given me : “ The Little Book of Celtic Lore” by Caitlin and John Matthews.

I am a wind on the sea,

I am a wave of the ocean,

I am a roar of the sea…

I am a hawk on a cliff,

I am a tear of the sun,

I am a turning in a maze..

I am a lake on a plain,

I am a dispensing power,

I am a spirit of skilful gift.”

This is pieces of a long poem by Amergin Whiteknee: a shaman and poet of the Milesian Invaders of Ireland. The chanting of “ I am “ helped to nullify the loss of self and identity I felt. It may seem a little odd and wacky but as I use to say to my clients “ If it works why fix it.” These were difficult times and I needed to get strength from whatever I could find that would not be harmful in the long run. I banned myself from any alcoholic beverages or selling my home, which was now like a mausoleum, for two years.

In the morning, when I woke up I sang another .

I arise this day,

Through the strength of the heavens,

Light of the sun,

Radiance of moon,

Splendour of fire,

Speed of lightening,

Swiftness of wind,

Depth of the sea,

Stability of Earth,

Firmness of rock and gratitude for the merciful three.”

I added the last piece about the three and I really didn’t know what this meant. Three felt like growth away from all the dichotemies I had been trapped in.

As I chanted I would place my hands on my heart. It felt comforting. I felt into the heart as the bridge between heaven and earth. When I stopped chanting I would imagine I was sitting in a temple by the bridge. I’d slow my breath down and be still. Just listening to the voice of my heart. There were few words and I loved that. At the time my brain mind was overloaded with constant obsessing about what had happened, hoping against hope that he would miraculously return, trying to make sense of the senseless, recriminating myself for being so stupid not to know, and for giving so much of myself away that I had stopped listening to myself.

I sang, chanted, drummed, danced, meditated, left my body in shamanic trances, worked my dreams, sculpted, walked with beauty before me, above me, behind me, beneath me, wrote pages and pages in journals and many other things to overcome the deep depression and loss of self. They all helped but it wasn’t until I truly surrendered to my heart that the raindrops glistened and moved into a magnificent light show.

That is how my Heart mind process began. I developed it over the years and used it with others. I was so excited when I found out about the Heart Math’s Institute and the results of their experiments scientifically affirming what I already believed and knew as true; that the heart has a mind, it speaks and thinks in a unique way, that it heals and that it is the centre of me.

From my heartinn. me to your heart in you with peace and love.

A Matter of Heart

“A Matter of Heart”  An art journaling project.

I’ve decided to do a little art journal project based around the heart symbol. This is not a decorative exercise but a serious and fun process for me to find out more about what is going on in my heart mind.

I have this idea that is is just important to work on consciousness from the heart perspective than anywhere else, perhaps more because we now know the heart mind is precognitive. Our hearts already know what we are going to do before we do. It is not known how long in time this precognition is but I have a hunch it works outside of the confines of time.

In my painting and drawing I’ve had surprises often. “Where did this come from?”, ” Why am I suddenly having the Red Lady appear in my paintings?” and “who is she, what is she telling me?” This is the joy of art journaling for me. I start out at one place and in the same work reveal many things I was unaware of. Sometimes I then paint larger versions on canvas. This is a process in itself because I often delete or add elements based on new awareness.  I find I am more engaged in the process of creating than the end product.  Some pieces stay numinous for some time and others have less significance to me.  I treasure them nevertheless but am not attached to them.

So now that I am seriously in the business of personalised Heart-Mind coaching I need to know more and more about my own journey and how this impacts, not only on me, but on my fellow sojourners as well.

I had coffee with a dear friend recently. She was asking me about the instruction to love thine enemies and forgiving our enemies. I said I struggled with this too. Gosh I’ve only just begun to love myself. I guess that’s a step in the right direction. Maybe it is one and the same thing. If I can love who I am even with the dark ones in me I must be more able to love others. I said I thought if we came out of separation and dualised thinking we would come to see all people are One. We have our enemies in us and we have come across them in our external lives because they are a reflection of an aspect of self that we are not conscious of. One of the great, “ Not Me tribe”.

When I was at a training workshop run by Max Schupbach,   www.processwork.edu/faculty/max-schupbach/ , in the 1990’s he often said “ Oh me too”, when that denial came up in him. I often use this line on myself when I become reactive toward others. This whole thing about loving thine enemies is only hard for the ego and the logical brain, the part that still thinks in cause and effect and wants to deflect from seeing this behaviour in itself. The heart mind does not struggle with this at all because it is non-judgemental.

I was in a vision process in InStory Way with Devorah Stillman  and went into the heart with this question, “ how can I love the unlovable?” I was thinking about four of our current world leaders because my egoistic reaction to them is disgust, repugnance, anger, and general aversion. I know these feelings lead to fight, flight, freeze, stress responses in me, a feeling of helplessness, and thoughts that we humans are at the brink of the abyss. This is not very helpful when I have a passion and a purpose to help alleviate suffering and take this matter of heart out into the world.

I was fortunate that in the vision I came to know; it is not the behaviour , the personality, or the physical being we have to love. We must love the soul being of each and every human being. 

If those causing human suffering will not budge,  applying derision, revenge, threats,  punishment  and the bombs, only serves to increase the problem. Violence begets violence, intolerance begets more intolerance, bombing begets bombing. Threats, violence, revenge, name calling, etc is not what awakens people but pouring love and peace energy into the collective heart-mind may well do. It is worth a try isn’t it because what we are doing hasn’t ever worked, isn’t working and won’t ever work?

So this is where I begin my “ A Matter of Heart Art Journal.” Maybe I am just naive about politics, the nature of suffering and war. I’ve been lovingly described as a terminal hippie, so liberalism, naivety and optimism are my forte. I even wear a flower in my hair at times…

I hope you will join me in this creative art project and find out more of what your heart mind has to say about you and what we all need.  Please post your work on The Blue Pearl Inn face book page.  I’d love to see what you are doing.  

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Here is the first page of my ” A Matter of Heart” journal. I called this heart,  Surrenderand wrote the gogyoshi to bring out the proactive and positive message in this heart  experience.  It took me by surprise.  I did not expect to have my heart shouting at me and a bent over woman carrying a heavy heart.  It is about reactivity I experienced last week related to a discussion about war.  The heart mind often serves to wake us up to what is creeping around the edges of our consciousness.  We need to develop the inner eyes to see, the inner ears to hear and bravery of heart to express this in the outer world.  My six  month personalised soul coaching programme will enable you to develop these abilities.

SURRENDER

Surrender up,
Your heavy heart.
Let loose on mellow winds,
Russetted memories in pale gold,
Dust from sweet unction days.

 

The second page didn’t hold as many surprises but there were still some.  I wrote this  gogyoshi from notes I had jotted down while I was creating the heart.  This is important because all the while we are creating from the heart mind , brain coherence lots of messages are coming into our thoughts.

My Heart is My Lodestar.

Heart is our lodestar,
Fallen to Earth.
No vanishing pulse in time.
Eternity in a glance.
Souls’ embodied truth.

I found I had these questions come to me while I was painting and drawing. What if my heart holds the minuscule holographic images of every human being that ever has, is now and ever will be living.? What if my Heart is the source in this earthly plain? Since we are made of the stars then my heart is my lodestar. It will lead me home.  I wonder what will appear in the next ” A Matter of  Heart” page?

This is page three.  I called it ” My Heart is My Refuge”  In Buddhism there are three refuges you can call upon:- the Buddham, which is the enlightened self which is already in us but which we have yet to uncover.  The second refuge is the Dharmmam . This is the truth of enlightened beings that whatever has the nature to exist has the nature to pass away.  Thirdly the Sangham is the teaching of wisdom teachers from the past, present and those still yet to come.

Page 4. The Broken Heart Healing. Some times things happen in the world that breaks your heart.  Then you must reach into the depth of compassion and send loving kindness out into the event.  I always feel this way when I hear about the suffering of children.

CHILD OF AFGHANISTAN.

Beyond the cresting waves,

on some unfamiliar shore

A child with a face of despair and grief,

asks the unanswerable.

Why us? Why me?

Page 5 is the heart called ” Intueri”  This is a Latin verb meaning to look inside or to contemplate.  The Heart Mind is precognitive and has the ability for non local intuition.  This intuition is referring to knowledge or sense of something that cannot be explained by the past or by sensing the environmental signals.

Page 6  Your Heart is a garden of Eden.  When you are in the wilderness, suffering from loss and hurt or physical pain, instead of numbing your senses, depressing and dumbing yourself down enter the garden of the heart mind.  Sometimes in clinging to the past we stay in deep mourning attached to those who have gone from our lives. Perhaps we think by doing this we keep the loved one with us or that we are demonstrating, to the great audience of the ego, how much we loved them and how loyal we are.  There is no audience and the ego is wracked with negative thought patterns of shame, guilt, fear,  pain, desperation, martyrdom, grandiosity, unworthiness and dependence.

From your Heart Mind the essential and most authentic Self  can be in charge. Here you can become inspirited.  The heart mind is a Heaven on Earth, a place of the ever returning and  the ever blooming.

PUAWAITANGA ( THE FLOWERING)

I have heard such hallowed voices.
Seen such hopeful signs when,
visions through blooming fields spread.
Puawaitanga promises in Summer,
we will meet again when dead.

Page 7 explores the Power of Three.

The Power of Three.

“ I arise this day,

Through the strength of the heavens,

Light of the sun,

Radiance of moon,

Splendour of fire,

Speed of lightening,

Swiftness of wind,

Depth of the sea,

Stability of Earth,

Firmness of rock

gratitude for the merciful three.”

In my six month “Heart Inn Me” programme we will explore together how to sit in your heart mind and to listen to stillness.  We can then share any blocks you may come across and then the positive outcomes of this practice in your life.

 I will help you to develop Heart Mind and Brain Coherence where all of the chaos of the external world, our obsessing monkey mind, angst and suffering melts away. This can happen, often without you even realising it, as you become more aligned with your true authentic being and Soul Self. You will transform and experience your transpersonal mind too. This six month programme is personalised especially for you as we commit to work and explore together one on one.

Go to the Heart Mind Programme and Store. Open the programme by clicking on the picture for a more detailed look at what my programme offers you. I am looking forward with excitement, and an open heart, to meeting and working with you.

From my heart inn me to your heart in you,

Jan.

Creating From the Heart-mind and Brain Coherence State.

I have no doubt that the creative intuitive latent abilities we all naturally possess are greatly enhanced by heart-mind brain congruence. It is a heightened state of mindfulness and a right brained way of being in the world. Here you follow your own rules. Forget about having to paint, draw, write, sing in a certain way. Create because you are human and that is what makes us human. Once you forget about having to do it this way, or that way, you begin to experience happiness in being alive. We gain so much confidence when we create from our authentic self. We have only just begun to explore this exciting way of being.

I want to share with you two pieces of creativity from the seeds of my childhood. If you want to know and have more in this intuitive way of creating from the deeper Soul Self, please join me as a member of the Blue Pearl Heart Inn tribe of soul travelers.

PATUPAIAREHE

Sitting among the peas is a gloriously safe thing to do when you are five and afraid. Even though you are not allowed to eat them, you do. Even though Mummy says eating the pods gives you worms, you do. This is deliciously, dangerously, safe.

I am Chummy, alone in the peas, alone with the sunshine and alone with the singing spirits. They are the ones that sound like birds but are not really birds. I know. I’ve seen them. I hear them. They sing “All Things Bright and Beautiful”, just like Sister Elsie does, in church. Only they don’t have shaky voices like Sister. The singing spirits have true voices. Don’t tell anyone about them, Chummy, they’ll say it’s only the birds.

You know its safe in the peas ‘cause the Patupaiarehe can’t get you here. They are the mist people with white skin and red hair. Lucy says they look exactly like me only I’ve got white hair. Lucy says some of them do too, so there!

Maybe I am Patupaiarehe? Lucy says they’ll come in the night and take me away with them to be their little girl. They’ll take me to the mists and I’ll never see Mummy and Daddy again. Lucy knows ‘cause she’s Maori. All of them are Maori except Mummy and Daddy, Kaysie, Johnny and me, and they all know.

Don’t think about Patupaiarehe, Chummy. Don’t think about patupaiarehe when you are sitting in the peas. If you don’t think about them then maybe the makutu won’t get you and won’t be true. Then you can stay with Daddy forever and be safe.

Just listen to the singing spirits and watch them dancing in the sky. There they are, long and thin and crystal white, dancing in the sky. Singing, singing, singing.Don’t think about them Chummy, don’t think about them, and haere mai, everything is kapai.

LONG AGO.

Watching light-dappling, summer leaves,
cast shadows on wild, sweet grasses,
daisy-chained childhood play,
laughter lost long ago
sings for a moment, innocent songs.

In my six month “Heart Inn Me” programme we will explore together how to sit in your heart mind and to listen to stillness.  We can then share any blocks you may come across in your creative path and then the positive outcomes of this practice in your life.

 I will help you to develop Heart Mind and Brain Coherence where all of the chaos of the external world, our obsessing monkey mind, angst and suffering melts away. This can happen, often without you even realising it, as you become more aligned with your true authentic being and Soul Self. In this place you enter a flow state of creativity.  This six month programme is personalised especially for you as we commit to work and explore together one on one.

Go to the Heart Mind Programme and Store. Open the programme by clicking on the picture for a more detailed look at what my programme offers you. I am looking forward with excitement, and an open heart, to meeting and working with you.

From my heart inn me to your heart in you,

Jan

Why I Write Haiku and Gogyoshi

You may have seen on my face book pages that I post a Haiku or Gogyoshi several times a week. I do this as a mindfulness practice.

It is important to notice the small things occurring in your life to enhance and make your soul journey even more luminous. I choose these micro forms of poetry because the economy of the words makes them initiated by my heart experience; that still small voice expressed through the creative.

I also choose a drawing or painting to accompany them to enhance the heart’s message. What is important to me is that the impression these poems and art make on you inspires you to “speak out “ from your heart.
Doing this, in whatever way feels right for you, will enhance your life and the life of others.

Haiku and Gogyoshi are Japanese forms of poetry.
Haiku is a verse in three lines. Line one has 5 syllables, line 2 has 7 syllables and line three has 5 syllables. Traditionally it is a mood poem and doesn’t usually use similes or metaphor. However my right brain mind works in metaphors all the time so there is almost always a double meaning in my haiku. In expressing your heart you make your own rules.
Gogyoshi is a five lined poem developed by Taro Aizu. It has few rules. A title and five short lines.
I have found that breathing slowly. Returning to the heart-mind, as a three or four times a day practice, stimulates the creativity in me. When I wake very often the poem is just there. Or I may be making the bed, getting in the fire wood and suddenly the poem leaps into my mind’s eye and inner ear. I immediately go and write it down on a scrap of paper. You need to do this or you will find , like dreams, they quickly fade away. You have to bring them into the outer world.
I do hope you will try this and post them on the Blue Pearl Heart Inn face book page so we can see them. This is an honouring of your hearts development and even though you may feel a bit shy.. take courage and do it anyway.

In my six month “Heart Inn Me” programme we will explore together how to sit in your heart mind and to listen to stillness.  We can then share any blocks you may come across in your creative process and then the positive outcomes of this practice in your life.

 I will help you to develop Heart Mind and Brain Coherence where all of the chaos of the external world, our obsessing monkey mind, angst and suffering melts away. This can happen, often without you even realising it, as you become more aligned with your true authentic being and Soul Self. You will be able to enter a creative flow state with ease. This six month programme is personalised especially for you as we commit to work and explore together one on one.

Go to the Heart Mind Programme and Store. Open the programme by clicking on the picture for a more detailed look at what my programme offers you. I am looking forward with excitement, and an open heart, to meeting and working with you.

From my heartinn me to your heart in you,
Jan

The Mindfulness of the Breath

When times are difficult and stressful we must be mindful of our health or our well being will suffer. This is a simple process to help.

  1. Pause: Take 5 to 10 minutes for yourself.

  2. Sit in a quiet and pleasant place indoors or outdoors.

  3. Close your eyes and be still.

  4. Notice the movement of your breath.

  5. Notice any areas of tension in your body and as you breathe out relax.

  6. Now slow your breathing down. Breathe in through the nose to the count of 5. Breathe out through the mouth to the count of 5 with a whispered sigh.

  7. Repeat this breathing for 3-5 cycles. Then return to breathing normally.

  8. Feel into gratitude. Be thankful for the good things in your life and commit to doing acts of kindness everyday.

Slowing and deepening your breath sends a message to your heart and brain that all is well.

In my six month “Heart Inn Me” programme we will explore together how to sit in your heart mind and to listen to stillness.  We can then share any blocks you may come across and then the positive outcomes of this practice in your life.

 I will help you to develop Heart Mind and Brain Coherence where all of the chaos of the external world, our obsessing monkey mind, angst and suffering melts away. This can happen, often without you even realising it, as you become more aligned with your authentic being and Soul Self. You will transform and experience your transpersonal mind too. This six month programme is personalised especially for you as we commit to work and explore together one on one.

Go to the Heart Mind Programme and Store. Open the programme by clicking on the picture for a more detailed look at what my programme offers you. I am looking forward with excitement, and an open heart, to meeting and working with you.

From my heartinn me to your heart in you,

Jan

The Woman in the Tree

There are many stories in our life that can grow to become myths which when told, written or used to create art, serve not only to free us but also to inspire and free others.  It is in sharing from heart minds that we send healing and creative energy into the world.  This  we use to do when we lived tribal lives, gathering around fires and hearths to listen to stories of the hunt or the wisdom stories of the elders. Imagine you are sitting around the fire in this moment listening to  one such story., The Woman in the Tree

A wyrd walker in spirit, Nagwasawa has given me this story:-

The woman in the tree

“Once long ago and far away, in the land of the long white cloud, lived a young flaxen haired, blue eyed woman who, at the age of seventeen, had just left home to enter into a new life for that was the custom of her people, the Patupaiarehe. She fared well on her own for, although innocent of the ways of the world, she was clever, curious and loving. Like most young women, in that time, she wanted to meet the love of her life and live happily ever after.

Before long she met a young warrior, brave and beautiful, brash and bold and she instantly knew he was her earth and sky. He was pretty smitten with her too so they courted under the branches of a huge blossoming cherry tree. The tree was hollow and the lovers had to climb to the opening in the trunk five feet lengths from the ground below. This provided shelter when the spring rains came and became their secret meeting place.

It was arranged by the elders of his tribe that they would be married and according to tradition the bride to be had to leave her lover and hide until he found her. This was proof of his commitment and honour. She went of course to their secret hiding place in the tree and waited with great anticipation for the magnificent young man to arrive.

He left , with good intentions and excitement, to find her and to spend a life with her. On the way, however, he came upon a dark haired Maori maiden with deep brown eyes. She was in distress. Her home had been washed away and her family lost to her. The warrior was beguiled and decided to stay with the shadow woman putting his bride out of his heart and mind and forgetting her entirely.

For days and nights the young bride waited in the shelter of the tree. Many moons waxed and waned. Her flaxen hair turned white. Leidartjarna, her lode star, continued to shine to show her the way. Ruru, the tiny owl who shared the tree, called at night for the wayward warrior. Spring, Summer and Autumn came and went. The seasons turned and soon winter was upon her. The faithful owl warned her that her lover had abandoned her and she needed to leave; to begin her life again, before her life force waned completely and the meagre nourishment he brought her was not enough to sustain her. The woman grieved and mourned still believing if she waited long enough her lover would return to her. Hope takes a long time to die in a young heart even when the body is old,” Nagwasawa said.

“So did she stay?” I asked Nagwasawa.

“We will see what unfolds,” she answered.

 

In my six month “Heart Inn Me” programme we will explore together how to sit in your heart mind and to listen to stillness.  We can then share any blocks you may have to your creativity and then the positive outcomes of this practice in your life.

 I will help you to develop Heart Mind and Brain Coherence where all of the chaos of the external world, our obsessing monkey mind, angst and suffering melts away. This can happen, often without you even realising it, as you become more aligned with your true authentic being and Soul Self. You will transform and experience your transpersonal mind too. This six month programme is personalised especially for you as we commit to work and explore together one on one.

Go to the Heart Mind Programme and Store. Open the programme by clicking on the picture for a more detailed look at what my programme offers you. I am looking forward with excitement, and an open heart, to meeting and working with you.

 

From my heartinn me to your heart in you,

Jan

Into the Heart Mind

Into the Heart Mind.

Your free recording took you into a deep, but simple, journey process to enter your heart mind. With practice and coaching from me you will be able to enter this space in an instant. This is so useful especially when worries and problems in your everyday life threaten to overcome you. When people say they are coming from the heart usually they are not. Most likely they are emoting from the brain which are emotions that are stimulated by our thinking.  Living at this level is a roller coaster ride. For years I was caught in the emotional highs and lows that followed my thoughts and amygdala reactivity to outside perceptions of danger. Sometimes the danger was real and life threatening but often it was not.

Once you know how to allow the heart mind to command your life nothing will ever be the same again. Once you learn the language of the heart, you will never again ignore it. You will come to know your true purpose because only your heart knows what that is. The part of the brain mind that seems to dominate us speaks, often incessantly, in many words is commonly called the monkey mind. The monkey mind dominates our thoughts and tells us stories of worry and doubt in ourselves that impact on us at an emotional level in a negative way. When we live from our thinking mind alone we are largely living from an immature ego. To have a mature ego is very important because an immature ego will either inflate us, ( grandiosity), or deflate us, ( the inner critic) .This leads to stress and ill health. The mature ego is one that knows it is just the faithful servant and not the master.

Mindfulness meditation seems to help to slow down the monkey mind but this takes a lot of practice. I know because I have been practicing Vipassana Meditation since I was twelve. Even a mature ego is not enough to become who we fully are. So who or what is the master? Some say your Higher Self or Soul Self or the Christos or Buddha or perhaps God. In the six month programme with me you will discover what or who this and the master will present in a way that is unique to you and that fits with your own belief systems and values. When I first heard Gregg Braden talking about the heart I was overjoyed. I wanted to know immediately how to get there as quickly as I could. I knew there were times when I had entered and been in my heart, during breath work sessions and other peak moments of joy, love and compassion, but I hadn’t then found a way to get there by volition.  In my reading I couldn’t find the specifics of me  HOW.  So I created a way and this is the core of my coaching over the deep work we will do in the 6 month programme.

You will begin to realise that the heart speaks a language of few words and profound, deep, joy. This works best for us when the brain mind and the heart mind are in cohesion and when they are congruent. Traditionally in our civilization we have believed that our brain has the most influence on our consciousness, and wisdom knowledge. Whereas our spiritual traditions, thousands of years old, say that the Heart is the centre responsible for our authentic Self, consciousness and gnostic wisdom knowledge.

As scientists are discovering the ancient traditions are right and here is why… Gregg Braden and Dr Joe Dispenza tell us the strongest bio magnetic field in the body is the heart, not the brain. The heart actually sends far more signals to the brain than the brain sends to the heart! The Human Heart is the strongest generator of both electrical and magnetic fields in the body. While the brain does have an electrical & a magnetic field, they are both relatively weak compared to the Heart.  A recent scientific discovery reveals that the heart has 40,000 specialized cells called sensory neurites ( brain-like cells.) that are concentrated in our hearts. Our hearts, then are more than an organ pumping oxygenated blood around our bodies they are also, and importantly, a life giving, pulsing brain. These cells learn independently of the cells in our brain. They “think” and feel independently. They think in vivid pictures and sensations not in words or logic. Because the heart sends many more messages to the brain than the brain does to the heart we can see that the Heart Mind is the centre of our beingness.  We can harmonise these heart cells with the brain’s calls and this is now called coherence. Physics also tells us that if we can change either the magnetic field or the electrical field of the atom, we literally change that atom and its elements within our body and this world. The Human Heart is designed to do both.

I have developed a process that with minimal practice allows people, who have begun a journey of self discovery and spirituality and are no longer just on automatic most of the time, to consciously journey into and to deepen and expand the Heart Mind influence on our entire being and the life we live.  I am now able to enter the Heart Mind in 3 breaths and I can teach you how to do this too.  I will design processes and exercises especially for you and assist you to apply your learning to find your own unique way and path. The outcomes of this coaching are profound; increased joy, peace and calm, better health and freedom from pain, release from obsessive thinking and painful memories, greater creativity, clairvoyance, clairaudience and intuition,and access to immediate joy even when the events in the outside world maybe negative or unhappy ones.

I am constantly developing my ability to be based in the heart mind so that there is a river-like flow from the heart to the brain and from the brain to the heart. I think perhaps enlightenment is when they become One. I hope you will join me in this exciting journey into a state of Being that seems limitless, as expansive and creative as the Universe itself. I am so passionate about this because I believe the outcomes are what we are being called to bring into a world now.

In my six month “Heart Inn Me” programme we will explore together how to sit in your heart mind and to listen to stillness.  We can then share any blocks you may come across and then the positive outcomes of this practice in your life.

 I will help you to develop Heart Mind and Brain Coherence where all of the chaos of the external world, our obsessing monkey mind, angst and suffering melts away. This can happen, often without you even realising it, as you become more aligned with your true authentic being and Soul Self. You will transform and experience your transpersonal mind too. This six month programme is personalised especially for you as we commit to work and explore together one on one.

Go to the Heart Mind Programme and Store. Open the programme by clicking on the picture for a more detailed look at what my programme offers you. I am looking forward with excitement, and an open heart, to meeting and working with you.

From my heartinn me to your heart in you,

Jan

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In my six month “Heart Inn Me” programme we will explore together how to sit in your heart mind and to listen to stillness.  We can then share any blocks you may come across and then the positive outcomes of this practice in your life.

 I will help you to develop Heart Mind and Brain Coherence where all of the chaos of the external world, our obsessing monkey mind, angst and suffering melts away. This can happen, often without you even realising it, as you become more aligned with your true authentic being and Soul Self. You will transform and experience your transpersonal mind too. This six month programme is personalised especially for you as we commit to work and explore together one on one.

Go to the Heart Mind Programme and Store. Open the programme by clicking on the picture for a more detailed look at what my programme offers you. I am looking forward with excitement, and an open heart, to meeting and working with you.